waaaaaa....
it had been so long since the last time i sign in here...

the post is so...OLD!

and feel kinda funny of what i wrote last time..=DD

前传～

她是去年新转校过来的新生
被分配坐于我隔壁

“第一天认识，请问贵姓啊？？”
她并没有回答
继续望着窗外
我继续问下去
她还是把口闭得像蛤蜊般
不回答
怎么有着这样野蛮的女生啊...
就这样~
他已开始变成了我的眼中钉

从那天起
他的一举一动
我都把它"铭记心中"
所谓
知己知彼，百战百胜
每当我得罪她什么的
我就立刻把我桌上任何东西都收起来
因为她必定会把我的东西丢出窗外
我就得走下楼把东西拿回

我们就这样
吵吵闹闹的
过了几个月星期~

“呃呃，老师跟我说那个新转来的学生horrr~"

"她会有什么事啊?? 还不是野蛮人一个~"

"你别针对人好不好,其实她是有原因的.....
老师说她的家庭有个暴力倾向的父亲...
在家时常挨打~
所以才对男性...
尤其是你..
有所偏见.."

班长用那细长的手指指向我....
(可能因为是学习钢琴的结晶品吧...)
当然我也有些惊讶..


[待续]

开始~

晚上
天空铺满星星
我
伫立在窗口
坦然面对这对她的思念

我知道
在这种时候
那里可以碰这些
具有强大影响力的东西
我才几岁
青春
还有很多能给我花

盘手中拿着电话
注视着她的信息
死就死
我...
那里可能应付不了
这些小儿科
那里可能会把我弄倒

她答应了
心里的那种感觉
从担忧霎那地转到心花怒放的快乐
有如
经过重重的困难
到最后重见光明的那种欢悦
那种我重来未曾有过的欢悦
我开始上瘾

每天回到家
第一件事就拿起电话
传简讯
到电话粥
什么都好
只要听到那把声音
我就会重新感觉到那份感觉
给我的心一些些的麻醉药般
把握之前所有的烦恼
抛到九霄云外

[待续]

早~

一位小男生
已被家庭灌输了

还未读完书
不管是什么借口
一概都不许谈恋爱
的思想...

很“不幸”的
在还未完成读书生涯的他
已开始被身体里的荷尔蒙控制了~
这一切都太早了
无论是在
=心理上
=情绪上
=态度上
都还未达到成熟的标准

万一
如果真的是万一
在感情上面对了问题
而一时想不开
......................
我真得无法想像他会有如何的下场
也许
或许
我看了太多的香港片.....

无论如何
他曾与自己对话
他曾考虑谈恋爱的对于错
这还勉强说得过去

然而...
一位不成熟的小孩
未免也会有一些不成熟的
朋友
没有想到
这一切会造成什么后果
一直在旁鼓励他去拍拖

难道
=他想不开
=无法解除心理的结
=放弃生活
=放弃自己的前途
=认为活下去也没用
=甚至因为无法承受这承重的打击而得了忧郁症
你们这些朋友都会负责吗？
你们负责的程度
又会达到怎么样的一个境界呢？？

我不是在反对
也没有任何的妒忌心
只是为了这小男孩的未来着想.................

一天
总有一天
他会为自己的所作所为
=感到内疚
=感到耻辱
=甚至会痛恨增经鼓励他拍拖的一群朋友

The Fall~

Its a day where by i am so damn lazy to go to tuition...
Tuesday..
went for add math tuition...near my house...
=,=
when i reach there..the teacher is not there yet...
and the aunty there..keep on asking me to go to her eng tuition class...
i wonder y she keep on promoting this teacher??
izzit she really really very super duper good??
orr...she is really damn noob so tat no ppl wan to tuition wif her...and the aunty dun wan to "rugi"
hmmmm...dunno~

yess...the class finally over...
i mean the eng class..this is the turn for add math class..
damn boring...
a dumb dumb boy keep on say very easy..front of his FEMALE FRIEND
but he keep on making mistake..=,=
so lame~

after the class...
my mum will usually wait for me...actually i can go bac myself one...
hahaha~
but luckily tat day she come to fetch me...
cuz something bad...really bad is happening...
as the class dismiss...we all came down from the tuition centre..
thenn...to reach the oppostie road...i need to go down a few steps..orr short stairss..
above it..its a air conditioner compressor....
soo...the stairs/steps are wet...
i emphosize...
i never fell down through out these years...
but unfortunately..
i was too careless..cuz i think i wont fell down so easily....
i juz dunno y...
as i nearly touch the road surface...
i stepped on air..and as i trying to balance myself..
it becomes worse...i lost my balance..=,=
fell down...
banggg on my back and my right hand...
after tat i heard a large volume of "ooooooooo....it surely hurt..."
=,=...lamee~
after tat...
i got up and walk by myself like an ah pekk~
left hand on my backk...and my body bends a little....

last few weeks..i went for treatment..i was nearly cured...
but this fall make it worst...i dunno when am i gonna recover...=,=
maybe its a fate where i wont recover...hahahaa~
be optimistic..xDD

累~

累~

每个人都经历过...
有时它让你~
=想放弃任何一切~
=想停止现在说做的一切~
=想躺在床上....什么都不做~

就在那儿发呆~

原因~
有很多....
=厌倦了现在的生活~
=缺伐激励~
=被伤害....我就是其中的一个...XD

我在考试前~
被"累"遮盖了眼睛...
有时...
一坐下来...就想起你~
一打开书...就想起你
甚至~
一闭上眼...就想起你~
简直...可算是没读到书~

每想你的当儿~
心里...就传来了一阵阵的痛~
不知如何形容...
一些酸~
一些苦~
又有一些的甜~

现在~
痊愈了...
但..有时~
还有些舍不得以前所经历过的感觉
我爸爸说得真好~
恋爱开始时~
身体...
精力充沛~
毫无累感~
甚至...一点点的小毛病也没有~
但失恋时~
病...通通都来...
只有两个字可形容~折磨....
唉~~

现在..回想回去~
真觉得..自己有些天真...
以为...
失恋时...
=我可以把所有感情吞进肚子....
=我可以在很短时间里忘记你...
=我可以当什么都没发生过...
然而...我做不到~唉....

现在....没什么好说的了...
微笑的理由~XD

days when parents at shanghai~

At home~~

Thurs~~
they went out during night time~~byeezzz...
then straight away sleep liao~~lol...

Fri~~
went to school like normal...lolz...
damn boring at home~

Sat~
went for lesson...
then chinese orch~damn tired....
then pcco...=,= kena marah buta buta....zzz....

Sun~
Performing~~yea...
took all those emo photo....=,=
feel strange...
during waiting for my turn...feel sleepy..still can sleep for this moment....
hahaa....
she put aeroplane...expected laa...lolz~~



















stupid floor....makes my drum goin front when i am playing....
cut my solo shorter....=,=...
drop my drumstick tiam~~
fish dao~~

then...went bac home after getting certificate...lol....
feel hungry~
i cooked~
yea....


=,=....not nice oso....
failure...lol...
=spaghetti...
=mushroom egg...cuz i prepared too much mushroom....
=dunno how to used it up...then i cooked the egg...too salty..=,=
me with apron~~
not bathed yet....lol...